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Lunar
Nothing gives more warmth than the company of people I love this rainy lunar new year. I know that I am incredibly lucky to have family who has grown up together with me — from pretending to be little mermaids, playing hide and seek, to fully grown children. We have gone into our twenties, with the age-stragglers already in their teens. Nothing quite says as much as us in a car, occupying 2 rows in a cinema, playing games in the arcade that will never seem to be beyond our age. We have gone all over the world, but we always come back. Some things have definitely changed since Grandpa has left; each year we do away with some things in the hopes of keeping things simpler, easier. I do miss the times in the shophouse which is now much quieter, and rather much left alone. But these blood relations, these familial ties is the invisible, powerful bond that keeps bringing us together — no matter where our gatherings may now be.
In other hopefully enduring affinities, it is warming to know that we still strive for reunions with old buddies. Sleepovers and steamboats, chatter and laughter. It’s miraculous that my idiosyncrasies have been embraced; the things I say and do half of the time, although sincerely earnest from me, seem absolutely mad to others. But they’re okay with it, although I do think they’re simply just used to it. The amount of time spent with people can be seen through the simplest and unthinking of actions — giving me a can of Coke around the table saying “Nah, your favourite”. Reading each other’s minds with a split second of eye contact before bursting into laughter. Laughing at the dramatic student-teacher duo screaming at their blackjack luck. Three of us standing in the middle of nowhere for more than an hour with me listening to the other two’s ghost stories from the army. Playing “guess which shirt I’d wear?” in the men’s section of a shop while waiting to give honest advice to the one in the changing rooms. Seeing everyone slowly drift off to sleep during and after the movie. There were also unexpected texts with people I was once close with but it seems as though the time distance never took place. These are what’s running through my mind now. Perhaps I’m having an “Oh my I am such an idiosyncratic person so how do I have such lovely relationships in my life?” moment. I adore these moments and I cherish them. And I guess there’s never a wrong time to give thanks for what I have. I muse over the fact that so many things have changed and will change, but it seems as though those won’t matter if our hearts stay the same. Tonight I feel grounded and I feel happy — so these are memories frozen in words.
Have a happy lunar new year, all.
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